11 Sick...

I hate being sick... Just when I want someone to take care of me and to be with me while I'm sick... I just have to be alone... Having a so-called bf is like having no one now... Friends and hang out time are more important... Maybe he will do it during the first few months or so of going out... but now... after many things have happened, and even though he says he still likes me... (notice the word like and not love) he's not acting like he still likes me... his actions... are... cold... maybe sometimes warm, but only sometimes... not always... isn't being together supposed to be warm and sweet and caring??? I'm not feeling anything...

10 Major Ingredient: The Real Me

Many people really don't know the real me... maybe only 2 or 3 people do really know me. But the rest just make assumptions... I may act shy and quiet in front of people, but that only applies the people who aren't my good friends. Though, sometimes I am quiet to my good friends, but that's because you can't really talk non-stop... there's got to be some quiet moments... Just because I don't talk in front of a big group or to new friends or friends that I'm not really close to, that doesn't mean I'm innocent or shy... and even when you find out that I can be mean, insulting, loud or annoying... that also doesn't mean that I'm fake or anything... different people have different personalities in front of different kinds of people (so many different, but my point is, everyone is different, you can't judge someone by their appearance)... Even my own family doesn't know me that well... sometimes, I don't even know myself... but I think most people are like that... that they don't truly know themselves. But I know for sure that this is me:
- sometimes quiet
- sometimes loud
- shy (this I admit, but not in a quiet way, just no courage)
- can act silly and retarded
- hasty
- impatient
- easily jealous
- can only be mean to close friends and that they know that I'm joking
- caring for others
- willing to help friends out without expecting anything in return
- will not say no when a friend asks for help or a favour
- emotional
- can be vicious
- easily hurt (physical)
- spoiled
- a bit selfish

9 Never learn their lesson...

Some people will never learn their lesson... even when things happened... and they know what they did wrong... they still don't really care or bother to change. They will just go back to the way they were. How many more people do I have to start hating again?

8 15/16

Sigh... I don't know what kind of relationship this is... sometimes 忽冷忽熱... really not sure what we both want. Should I continue with this relationship or should I be cruel and just ignore it?? But sometimes these things are out of my control...

7 Tasteless...

How can a relationship last if it loses trust, commitment, honesty, effort, "tum" and most important of all... Love...? Most couples are sweet and clingy for the first few months... and after that, it fades... they won't be as clingy and sweet to each other anymore... why does that happen though? Does it mean that they don't love each other as much as they first went out? Or they're bored with each other already...? Or is it because they've been together for too long that there's no need to be sweet anymore?? I think sweet is always needed in a relationship... sweet is effort... sweet is "tum", sweet is love... if a relationship is fading in those three factors... then maybe should start thinking about is this guy right for you? Can you two really go on together as a lovely couple?? Hmm... I should ask myself these questions...

6 Sour... Lime

How close can a relationship of a boy and a girl be? I always think that if a boy and a girl go out for a drink or to do something with just the two of them, there is something going on between them... like either one has feelings for the other or both do... It's not that it is wrong for a boy and a girl to hang out alone, it's just that if one of them has a boyfriend or girlfriend, then it would be kinda wrong to do so. But I still don't get why would a guy, who has a girlfriend already, would still go out with a girl alone... what do they have to talk about that have to be just the two of them? Why cant they invite more people to join them or something... If they are just going out to hang and talk about random things, then why do they have to do it alone, if they are doing it alone, wouldn't that means they want to be alone with each other and learn more about the other?? Like unless the boy and the girl are extremely close, let say, extended family (non-biological family), then it would OK to talk about their issues and stuff. But it's not about issues or problems... then I don't see the suitable point for a boy and girl to hang out. Of course, hanging out, meaning calling someone out and stuff... not like the two randomly met each other at some place... It's the calling each other out that's considered to be wrong, in my case...

5 Sweet... Hana Kimi

I cant believed Hana Kimi ended like that... I'm really disappointed in the ending... I really thought everything and the secret will be confessed... but interruptions kept occurring. The explanation at the end was that love has no reasons at all, no explanations, that it is just a feeling, as long as two people love each other, nothing matters. One can say that in the fantasy world... but face it, in reality... it's different. There are just too many factors to love. Jealousy, family, financial income, different personalities and more... Even if there love, it might not last forever... things will occur and come up and will fade your love... Love is the most complex feeling. And love is the only one thing that you don't know how to deal with it and keeps you worrying if you have made the right decision...

Love bites...

4 Surprised...

Wow... Blogspot auto-login! lol just find that amazing...

3 我可以

Great song...
作詞：林唯/蔡旻佑 作曲：蔡旻佑

寄 沒有地址的信
這樣的情緒 有種距離

你 放著誰的歌曲
是怎樣的心情 能不能說給我聽

雨 下得好安靜
是不是你 偷偷在哭泣
幸福(它)真的不容易
在你的背景 有我愛你

我可以 陪你去看星星
不用再多說明 我就要和你在一起
我不想 又再一次和你分離
我多麼想每一次的美麗 是因為你

Though the song is really nice... I don't really agree with the lyrics... if I'm not with someone anymore because he did something wrong (say... fell in love with someone else... or cheated on me or something...), no matter how much I love that person, I wont go back with him, even if he regrets or he couldn't find someone else or he doesn't work out with his new gf/target. But I guess if we were naturally broken up because of reasons other than 3rd wheel or did something wrong... (like family, arguments and stuff) and if I still love him, then I will wait for him... of course only if he still loves me back...

2 Bitter... then Sweet

Why do parents always get on our nerves?? Why do parents always have to treat us like we're still a kid? Well, at least most Chinese parents do... mine certainly do... -.- Is it really that wrong to go out at night? It's not that I go out every night... and is it really that wrong coming home after midnight...?? I get why parents worry... but I don't get why parents always yell at their kids for it... they don't have to shout and have a long discussion of why u shouldn't be going out instead u should be staying home and study or do some productive things... I find it annoying when parents always tell u to study study study... so I'm not getting good grades... and I know I should study... but I really do study (sometimes, it's not my fault that I'm not as smart as other people, *Chinese saying: no medicine to cure stupid people*)... it's just that I wanna have fun in my University years as well... sigh.... but I cant be mad or angry at my parents tho... I know how it feels being in their position... it's just that moment when they're bursting at u spontaneously... but after a while... we're one big happy family again... lol... I guess that's how family operates la... I LOVE YOU GUYS~!

1 New Opening!

Sigh... I accidentally deleted my first post tim...

This is what I wrote on Friday, March 2, 2007: lol... just made this blog with Jeff today... because GiGi and Kelvin both have Blogspot =P so we decided to make one too... I"ll be writing my personal reflections and thoughts (a.k.a diary) here XD